My Crimson Chaos

Dear Kevin, As I'm packing for my trip to Nola, I've ended up having a Kev moment tonight. I think trying to figure out what to wear on New Year's Eve triggered it. Remember last year? Just me, you & a cell phone.  Kev, I sure miss your voice. I know what you did has forever changed me.  I am SO SORRY for letting you down.  I should've been there that night. Who would've thought? I DID NOT want Ash with you & ended up falling completely in love with my wittle baby brahther!!! You'd love how I've made everyone so uncomfortable so many times this year reliving one of our crazy memories!  Be glad you missed the Iron Bowl. It was horrible. The day after tomorrow will be so hard for me.  New Year's last year was so full of hope!  You were better! And everyone was happy. Okay.... I should have suspected something when Ash asked for a Chunky & you bought her 20.  But let's be honest. That was so romantic! You'd be proud of your

2013 just hasn't been my year, y'all. It straight up curbstomped me.  I mean American History X style curbstomp. I've lost a lot this year.  I've been forever changed by events I'd have never thought would happen to me.  But life happens. Death happens. Unfair asshole bosses happen. Suicide happens.  We all get dealt a hand in life.  And it may be a straight flush & it may be nothing.  But at the end of the day, it's what you make of it. A year ago today, I was going to UAB to pick up the Christmas tree I had taken to decorate Kev's room.  It was stormy & I was straight up ill because I just didn't want to spend Christmas night that way.  Oh, how many times I've wished to have that night back.... Kev was the best of us.  Yep. That's a cliche'. But he really was.  He was a fighter like nobody I've ever seen.  He showed courage that amazes me.  He had but 2 goals; to be a narcotics officer & to love my sister.... And he

     The Tallahassee Police Department may soon realize that rape victims aren't the only people subject to getting raked over the coals.  A Florida woman has started a petition asking the Florida Department of Law Enforcement to investigate the Tallahassee Police Department's handling of the Jameis Winston case.      Just days before the 2013 Heisman Ceremony, prosecutors announced there wasn't enough evidence to charge Winston.  However, the TPD had only handed the case over to the State Attorney's office just weeks earlier. Coincidentally, just 1 day after the  media had submitted an open records request regarding Winston & 11 months after the rape was reported.  Many have expressed outrage over the way the TPD handled the allegations, citing preferential treatment of the 5 star FSU quarterback.      Maureen Hamrock, a St. Augustine mother & rape survivor, is leading the charge by attempting to attain the 35,000 signatures needed to open an investigat

Dear Heisman Trust;      After watching last night's Heisman ceremony, I have decided to break up with you.  Trust me, it isn't easy.  Breaking up with someone you've loved for so long is downright hard as hell.  I'll always cherish the happy times... Mark Ingram, Barry Sanders, Ricky Williams just to name a few.  I forgave you for Cam Newton & Johnny Manziel because I never expected you to be perfect.  We all are entitled to a few mistakes.      But after Jameis Winston won last night, I pulled out that letter you wrote me & read it at least 50 times.  You promised me you'd always " continue to protect the integrity of the Heisman trophy ".  You said you'd always choose the player whose performance best exhibits the pursuit of excellence with integrity.  If you truly meant what you told me, then AJ McCarron would have won last night. Not because I'm a fan of The Crimson Tide but because it was the right thing to do.  And I just can'

     I'll never forget December 12th, 2009.  I was in Coleman Coliseum for the basketball game when the Heisman ceremony began streaming overhead.  The Heisman Trophy has long been thought of as college football's most prestigious individual award.  And until that night, had always eluded The University of Alabama.  So when they announced running back Mark Ingram as the winner, the crowd erupted!!!  Watching his tearful acceptance speech reminded me how momentous this must be for a young man.  Imagine being inducted into a fraternity of men that include the likes of Doak Walker, Roger Staubach, & Herschel Walker?  That's gotta rank pretty highly on anyone's life accomplishment list...      The Alabama fanbase had an enormous sense of pride watching a Bama player FINALLY win the Heisman Trophy.  And historically, I've had a tremendous amount of respect for every Heisman winner, no matter the school he represented.  But the actions of The Heisman Trust in rec

     It's Christmas time in Alabama...  Gingerbread houses, mistletoe, & Alabama auburn fight song themed Christmas lights. Wait... What???  Gosh, I love this state....      Merry Christmas from the College Football Capitol of the world..... Thanks for stopping by, y'all..... Roll Tide!!!

     I really do.  So in honor of being stuck watching them play in the SEC Championship Game today, I thought I'd make myself feel better by listing some of the many reasons why I HATE AUBURN !       I hate Patrick Fain Dye. I hate his drunken diatribes. I hate his interviews. Why should I care what a drunk, cheating, lying tree farmer who loses his own pants has to say? I hate that he can't even say the word family.  What does fambly even mean?  I hate that he's like the Jim Jones to the auburn cult!      I hate Tommy Tuberville.  I hate his ears. I hate wingnuts because they remind me of him.  I hate his smug grin.  I hate that he allowed his '04 team to receive championship rings FOR WINNING NOTHING! I hate his thumbs & that stupid saying, 'Fear The Thumb'. What kind of man holds up fingers to taunt heartbroken college kids?  A classless one named Tommy.  That's who.  I hate that he was too incompetent to keep his job at auburn and deprive us mo

  Jameis Winston has been a beast in his first year as starting quarterback for Florida State University.  I admittedly watched his on the field talent & off the field charm with a tinge of envy.  Being a fellow Birmingham native, I also had a sense of pride when he became the front runner in this year's downright bizarre Heisman race.  Jameis Winston seems to  embody the young man we all yearn to have leading our favorite team.            So when TMZ Sports reported allegations of Winston sexually assaulting a young woman in late 2012, I had feelings of disappointment & disgust.  Right or wrong, college athletics, especially football, is a big time business & the athletes responsible are role models. For our children. And for many adults.  Nobody wanted to think of 2013's golden boy as a rapist. But just as disturbing is the fact that the Tallahassee Police Department did everything they could think of to make these allegations 'go away&

      It's a cold, overcast Tuesday & I'm curled up with hot chocolate listening to Finebaum. Most of my fellow 'Bammers' have sworn this show off this week because auburn fans can be downright painful when they have a team that can actually win some games. But I find it quite interesting.  Honestly, I find everything about that fanbase interesting.       I'm definitely still a little hurt over the devastating & shocking loss I witnessed Saturday evening in Auburn. In an Iron Bowl that nobody predicted Bama could lose, 87,000 people saw some plays that were downright jaw dropping.  Most football fans would write it off as luck mixed with preparation. But not Auburn. To them, it's a God thing. And they really believe this. I wonder if they imagine a man cave somewhere in heaven decked out in orange & blue where God invites his peeps over on Saturdays to pull for His team.  They even dressed their mascot as an angel Saturday. Seriously. Aubie was sp